Well I have not written in a while. I get in moods to write and then I get in moods to just tweet. My other blog was kind of my blog about anything blog. I guess this will be my new tell all blog. I won't blog just about beer. It is titled Adventures with Lil T and so I find that fitting to blog about my life.
A LOT has gone on. Most of you know by reading my tweets or my Facebook. I am facing a bunch of change in my life and I am ready for it but also scared. Moving with no job and no prospect of a job is very scary. I have very little income so that scares me too but I know it is for the best. It took me a while to really get it to sink in that I am in an abusive relationship. He may not be physically abusive but abuse it abuse and I can not continue to live in it.
I always wondered why women stay. I get it now. Getting out is not easy. It is financially hard. It is also hard when you are isolated. I have no friends here and no family. No one to really help me pack up and go. I also have to leave after he leaves for work so I can peacefully get out of here with what is mine. I do no plan to take anything that does not belong to me even though he has put me through such hell. If I were vindictive I would take every damn think I could possibly fit in by get away van! Also trying to just get a cargo van or U haul has proved way harder than I expected. I should not say harder I should more costly. U haul says $19.99 but once I add in miles and gas and insurance and blah blah blah its over $250 so I have to figure something else out...again hard to get out. I am thankful I was able to secure and apartment. It is not nice...or lovely but it is MINE and I will be in control of my life once again! Now I just have to figure out how to get there!
